The days feel longer

I've written a chapter of something that feels like a story but, not sure whether I want to post it up. Aside from that, I had my first cosplay shoot yesterday. It was a last minute planning from my friend but it worked out quite well I guess. But when I got back home, I felt so drained and feverish. I was in the most foul mood.

It isn't very good..but I guess it's a start? I'm still not sure how cosplay photography works. Lately, been trying to recuperate and spend some time alone. It's not that I don't like company but I've been quite sick the whole of today and sometimes, I like to sleep off the pain. I had a couple of rude awakenings from my family but nothing to drastic. I don't know the purpose of this post actually. 

Blogging

London. Looking at Big Ben, I can remember it's chiming. Such a blissful moment for me. It was my first time too. And once more, it feels like old London again. So vintage, preserved but most of all, beautiful. Can't believe this. Why is it my family has no sort of interest in this anymore? 

Though my main reason here is not to talk about Big Ben. I'm confused to what I should be doing right now. It's quite late now but somehow, sleep doesn't come so easily to me. I remember, being left alone..one day. By someone I used to love. 

Or perhaps, trust? It's sad cause we could no longer go back to that path. Even being friends, was difficult. It felt like a chore for the sake of my best friend. 

What it seemed like sweet love turned so bitter. I remember the months passing by and waiting for his call or even a note. 

Nothing.

Those weeks turn to months and the more I see him, the more we felt distant. After the long and painful wait, you decided to come back..and end it on bad terms. You told me that it was for the sake of your studies but in fact..you wanted to get away from me.

Thought I did move on but deep down, I was well hurt. 

Sigh.

Last stretch

I have incoherent posts for the past few weeks but mind you, I have been very busy. I guess, I'm not that kind of person who writes alot about life..? Or every little bit of what I do? The thought it is daunting but I really have nothing to show to be honest. 

Though I feel, through design and photography, I have a better grasp of things. I might need to start taking up that old film camera and work it. I really do love taking pictures. Even of my work. Perhaps I should show you my workplace? (Hell no.)

That aside, it's been almost...a gruelling week. There will be more pictures hopefully. In the mean time, I shall keep quiet. 

Forgotten

I've forgotten this space once more. I very much apologise for this. But then again, who really is reading this? *laughs* I've been rewatching my old childhood anime shows while doing work. It's relaxing and fun. Keeps my mind at ease actually.

But there's always this torn decision about my future.

I know...I should explore as much as I want.


Resorting to University would be the best choice for me.

But howw far can I go with it?

Perhaps, I might resume studying after work?

Masters? PhD?

All these confusions. Filling up my void.

And here I am.

Making stuffs I love.

To my man :)

Hello my man :)

You're 21 now, welcome to my club haha! I want to keep this short and sweet. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me and I hope you feel the same way too. You're stronger than you think you are, smarter, wiser and most of all the most loving. You really have been patient with my mood swings and nonsense; despite all that, you still cherish and love me.

And I will too.

Please don't ever doubt that.

Happy birthday and have a wonderful day ahead :3

With much love all the way from London!

Serena.

Admittance

I admit studying abroad is very hard. Nothing else I can add on that. But on a happier note, most of my friends have graduated from their diplomas and now currently working, looking for jobs or even starting up their own freelance workspace. I feel so ecstatic for them! It has been 3 years since we started the design path and they're already graduating. I had a few setbacks with my course but ultimately, I am very close into finishing my first year in degree.

I am excited but scared. Time passes so quickly and before you know it?! You're done with the first year. It's already April. Damn, how much longer?

....

hmmm.

I should start writing my essay now.

I have safely returned home. I feel a lot better now that I know that there's something for me to do this Easter. It gets my design nerves working. I feel so much at peace. It's great to see my family and my boyfriend. My boyfriend picked me up from the airport and I always get this nervous feeling tied inside me after 7 months of not seeing him. Seeing him again set my heart so much at ease and soon we were doing all the things we love. 

I've been reading Designing Design by Kenya Hara and it's absolutely the most brilliant book I have ever read. I am thinking of ideas to work on my next project already! How crazy is that? 

I think this is what I really do love the most about designing. 

When you're not on dead pan pressure and you have control of everything.

Sounds amazing.

Today, I shall spent my day with a nice book, probably head for a nice drive as well (I miss driving) and gonna be waiting for that email from my lecturer.

Ah such is life.