Hope

From now on, I'll prolly eat full vegetarian for him. It's not that I have to or what. It's just I want to. I know he's been going through a lot in his life and it's so upsetting that I can't do anything special for him or I can't do anything at all to comfort him. All I could do is just pray. Praying before I sleep and praying that he will be able to do it. I know it's been hard but he's trying very hard at the moment. I've seen him work and even if it's not Picasso or Da vincci best but everyone deserves a little credit for taking that mile to work. I always believe that in life, people who puts in even just a little effort is better than putting none at all or not even doing anything at all. I've seen him work and I know he's trying very hard. I'll always be praying for you baby.

It's not much but it's all I could do. I would sell everything and book a plane just to see you, comfort you and help you. I would if I had that money. I would join the competition and win it just for us. I know..it seems a little far fetched or that I am getting way over head, but..it's one of the ways to motivate myself, to make me feel like I could do something rather than doubting myself giving myself negative comments about being unable to do it.

Feels sad at times I feel worthless. And how money is so tight at the moment I could just cry. 

But for you, I'll always be strong. I'll always remember how you comfort me, tell me to smile, kiss me and hug me whenever I feel down. 

But no matter the reason, I'll always love you.

Praying that you'll be able to get through the semester and praying that you'll understand and realise how much I love you. 

And baby, don't ever give up. It's your chance to show your lecturer what you can do. He giving you an OTP is a good chance. He's giving you one more shot to work out your flaws and do better. He could have done the other way round but with this opportunity you surely can show what you have. Take time to understand and do it well. I am always sure you can do it. Even if by means, it's not Da Vinci level and all that shit but the effort counts. You're always improving and I can see that. I love you so much. 

Don't ever lose hope. Don't lose faith in yourself and I won't lose faith in you. I never will.

I love you booboo :D

LOVES! <3

Favourite part

My week has been crazy! It has been and so far I am loving my course. Photography class ended today and I really do feel a sense of nostalgia. My final project for it was amazing as well. I am glad I took the time to learn, understand and be patient with my picture. Peter has taught me so much not just about photography but about appreciating the art of it. And it turned out so good that Peter was happy with it and the technicians as well. I was happy with it and I will say it once again. I love my final project outcome. So well I did another shoot with my friend. It was rather spontaneous but quite fun. It was at Richmond Park and another Richmond Park album coming out soon!

Thank you Jo for being my model :) I really honestly must tell you that you are beautiful in every way :) 

Anyhoos, yeah I am currently doing my awareness poster research. I'm doing about HIV but though I must say I want to do another research on another program. But either way, this will do for now. There hasn't been anything special for the past weeks. Been doing my work and all. But well eventualllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy! I'll get by :)

See ya :D

Photography: Journey.

Because I am so in love with my project, I am going to do a series of my own interpretations of the Journey. Today I have learnt something so important in photography. It was patience. Patience is such an important element in photography. It can be a pain in the butt at times but patience is what you need to achieve something.

I learned how precise and absolute details of photography take count into everything.

And the results are amazing. I had to cough, and smell the stench of cigarette but it was all worth it for photography. I set off fire alarms. Done many crazy stuffs. Could have killed myself for countless reasons but it was all good for photography (now I sound really self obsessed)

I would love to do it in film to be honest.

Film would have been a better choice but for now, I shall still stick to digital. I have been looking through today's photos. Am quite happy with the product.

Till then :)

I wished

My Wednesdays are now spent by doing work and all that. Today was quite productive. I went to the Magma bookstore and finally I got my magazines! I am so super duper thrilled. For once, I actually spent on something that excites me alot! Check them mags!

Frankie and Blueprint! This Frankie's issue just got released today and boy it was a steal! :D I was whimpering in happiness! And Blueprint is an architecture magazine. I love the stylish grids in it! Yes, right now, I am so in love with magazines. 

And I be sipping on bubble tea.

As I do my work. Yes, Paul Rand and his madness.

Well gotta run off :D Bye.

Recurring patterns

I haven't been blogging that much. Sorry. But I have been really busy with some work and right now, I wanna take a break from it before continuing the madness until 1 am. Yes, I set a time for it because I can't go any further or beyond than that time. Today I did my film developing work. I wasn't satisfied with the negatives and I clearly didn't understand why they were all so dense. It must have been the sunlight which I exposed to. I am to be sure next time it won't happen again. But thank God for Peter, he guided me throughout the process and my weak negatives had pretty good outcomes. The noise level is incredibly high just so you know because I have to exposed to its maximum at 60 seconds (1 minute exposure) to decrease the brightness. Alright, for those who don't know what I am talking about, here's the thing. When your negative is dense, it means you're allowing too much light into your picture. 

Meaning it's overexposed. But when your negs, turns out bright or too bright which means your picture is underexposed. In other words, if you develop your negative to positive, whatever I have said above made sense. It took me longer than others to get it right but in the end, I was happy with what I got. 

The theme was called recurring patterns.

This was one of the many happy accidents :)

As for magazine research, I've been doing okay. I just need more time to reflect on my work. And update the journal of course. Alright, that's it for now. Talk to you guys soon!