The year's ending once again

In a few days that is but before I go, I wanted to blog about yesterday's outing. This is why my best friends never left me. I mean, you guys probably have experienced this before. You hang out with your closest friends and you realised that nothing ever change when you're with them. Best feeling ever.

And today, we had all these little quirks, bits of nostalgia that comes rushing in and before we know it, we were talking like how we used to in high school.

And now?

We're all grown up but still, we stayed the same :)

It was a great outing :) pictures will be up soon but I must say overall, I am amazed at how time flies :) It's just whenever I'm with them, I can never get old. I mean it's just like how time stops whenever I'm with baby boo :) and with them as well, it's like we were back to being 17 again. I feel like I wanna cry everytime I look at this picture.

It's just so beautiful :)

And lastly, in case you haven't notice, there is something to look forward to next year :D

AWWW YEA. (Except Spidey man but who cares we're awesome)

Anniversary :)

I can't believe it :) I mean it's really amazing how time flies so quickly. A year being together has taught me a lot of things. Though I am learning to be a better and understanding girlfriend but I want you to know you're the most amazing person I ever met.

I remembered when we first met, he still had long hair and we didn't really bonded that much except for the fact I made you my pet rat :O and it was part of my umm, family we had together at sem one. But i just don't know when or how we just started talking again. One moment we were on skype chatting and then we were calling and I had so much fun just talking to him. It was amazing. That feeling of having someone to talk to, laugh with and enjoying their company.

He then asked me out for lunch and we had lunch at our usual pan mee restaurant. It was just casual lunch but I felt something for him then and at that time, I already ended mixed feelings with another person like way back.

Ever since that day we got closer, and in fact we watched a movie together, Due Date and that day he got terribly drunk as well :P But he said some things which made me all butterflied up inside, beaming and I was relieved at the same time he was alright considering he drove from Sunway, all drunk and such. But we got much closer to each other after that which resulted in well him asking me out on Christmas day and being very much close during at Nadine's party. With all that happening, it was pretty obvious and clear I had feelings for him and when he finally asked, I said yes :)

And the rest is history :)

My man :)

Hehehe I love you baby :) Happy 1 year :)

=D

As long as we put our mind and heart into our relationship, distance is just a number. I hope you will do well while I'm away. I know it's been hard for you and I'm always so far away everytime you're in trouble. I don't know whether I've been a good girlfriend or such considering at times I feel like I didn't do enough for you. Then again, if you're happy or at least laughing with me, I must be doing something right.

In all, I love you baby :) Happy 1 year :D

Ever had those moments where at one point, a hard truth drops on you? It wasn't very easy accepting what I heard today. My dad after a very long time of pondering decided to tell my sister and I the truth about our family. A very dark truth. It was a blasphemy. Indeed I can't take it. But I never hated my dad for it. Or anyone else. He knew it was his fault therefore he tried his best to make both sides happy. It was something he couldn't runaway from and that he took it like a man and carried on with his duties. I very much admire him for that.

On the other hand my mother, gosh. I don't know how she could face that truth after all the years of being together. It was very hurtful. When it all came together, she was hurt badly. And it was daunting. Painful to the say the least. If it ever happened to me, I would have just left. But she stayed. Even if she knew what was happening. I don't know whether she did stay for us or for him but she stayed, throughout the years, supporting us, grueling through our hardest times and stayed till now.

I couldn't have asked for a better mother, a better father, a better family who stayed strong throughout thr years even with everything that was happening around them. I pray for my family to be strong, to withstand any kind of pain that we go through and most of all, a healthy family that would last for a long time.

Keep the faith.

Mousseeeeeee

Before I rant about some stuffs, just gonna post a few things. I made chocolate mousse yesterday and yes it was the surprise for my boyfriend :) It isn't very ummm special. Just chocolate mousse and that's it. It's super easy to make.

All you need is:

1) chocolate (any kind of chocolate but for this case, we used milk chocolate)

2) whipping cream (not the instant one, you need the whipping cream as in the ones that are actually in liquid form)

3) fruits (for the decoration)

these are also some items which can be considered but not necessarily needed.

1) sugar (if you're using dark chocolate, you might need sugar but not too much)

2) vanilla ascent (just for the vanilla flavour)

and if you want, I recommend using coffee mixed together with the chocolate as well.

Steps?

1) Pour 200 grams of whipping cream into the mixing bowl and beat it well till till it's fluffy. If you want to test whether the whipping cream is ready to do, just tilt the bowl to see if it's moving. If it's all fluffy and not moving, it's ready to go into the fridge. But if it's still moving, you have to beat it a little more. Now this part is the trickiest. You have to be careful not to overbeat the whipping cream or else it'll turn into butter. I recommend it best to work in air conditioning rooms or at least work under a fan like what I did, cause it melts fast and we don't want that.

2) After that you need to repeat step 1 above in another mixing bowl until it's all fluff up and then put it in the fridge to cool. 

3) You need to pour 3/4 of water into a pot and bring it to a boil. While that is in the process, pour out 200 grams of chocolate in a separate bowl. When the water comes to a boil, place the bowl on top of the pot with the boiling water and wait for the chocolate to melt. This way, you will get a nice melted, smooth texture of chocolate. A lot of people might end up just melting the chocolate by putting in the chocolate straight under a direct heat which is what I did and the chocolate ended up burning to bits and pieces. So no no for that. In this process you have also add some coffee mixture in it to get a more coffee tinge to the mixture.

3) Once the chocolate is melted, take out the already nice fluffed whipping cream from the fridge and mixed it together with the melted chocolate. I didn't add any sugar for this because the chocolate was already sweet enough so you don't need to add another spoonful of sugar. Try not to mix the mixture roughly but instead use the folding method for this mixing process. When folded nicely, you should be able to get a nice and fluffy texture of creamy chocolatey goodness. 

4) When that is done, place the mixture in any nice cups or bowls you have and top it off with some extra remaining whip cream in the fridge and cut up fruits. Place it the fridge and wait for it to be a little stiff for about a few hours. When that's done, just serve it well!

Behind the scenes!

I couldn't resist.

Whipping up the cream! :D

I'll probably stop here for the time being. See ya guys real soon! :D

Crazy week ahead

So photoshoot number one is down. I've planned that for quite some time and I was happy it turned out good. I was proud of myself to be honest despite some glitches along the way. I am sort of trying to change my photography style a little bit more now that I've understood some new and interesting functions from my camera. I haven't got down to actually to do post production since there's so many things in my mind that I still have to do yet I am really tired today. I plan to do crazy lots of work this week. At least this coming Friday where I am going to go out to get some fabrics (or I could do it tomorrow) and take pictures of restaurants, and such, collecting brochures like a beggar.

Overall fun experience.

Here are some pictures from today's shoot. They're not completed. I have lots more to edit but in the end, what the heck, for the love of it.

I haven't been uploading my spotless exposure so it's the best time for me to do so.

Ah blog.

I haven't been blogging. Uhuh. SORRY :( I've been really tired these days, trying to be a good girl by catching up with all my work. I did successfully did my research work. But of course, it needs to be more. I was planning on Thursday morning and Friday to go all out and visit everywhere, collect brochures, take pictures and such. So far, I collected quite a decent amount of info.

And yes, the amount of books I am studying+ research :D I know.

Aside from that, been catching up with everybody :D Yesterday I visit Dina :) and she was still the same. I mean it really gets to you when you realised that you're finally growing old together with your best friend and when you meet each other again, it feels so much like when we were 13. Has it really been that long? We were looking through the photobook we made for her when we were like 15 :) My photoshop skills was of course at its experimental and progressive mode. But what I really love about it were the memories in it. So touching and amazing :D It feels nostalgic now that I think about it. But then again, it's always the memories that make it so much more magical.

Anyhoos, I hung out with my cousins today. Watched as she splurged on stuffs and we ended up trying this Gelato ice cream which was pretty delicious. Caramel Almond. Quite a nice touch and flavour. As if that wasn't enough we had takoyaki and bought some interesting umm stuffs at Daiso.

I had a terrible tummy ache so I had to rush home and nap like a baby (yes sadly my naps are always rudely interrupted by the contraction- wait that sounds. ahem. :D)

I sent her home but I stayed at her place for a bit longer only to be lavished with goodies from my aunt. DURIANS. :D THREE BOXES ALL MINE.

MINE.

MINE.

:D

Yay :D

Hehehe I was like this when I saw the durians.

Except he's way much cuter than I am.

Anyways, gotta make some milo. Ehe. Goodnight world :D

Reunite

Feels like it's straight out of a movie.

Glad to be back home.

Glad to have your boyfriend here.

Glad to have your family and friends.

Glad that everything is going well.

Glad to be me.

I'm pretty much working it :D

Only if TIME LETS ME SLEEP :(

And I am

Back.

It feels good to be back. I had so much fun in London and now I'm going to have a blast here. Oh well, here's to Malaysia :)

My beautiful country!

Hope

From now on, I'll prolly eat full vegetarian for him. It's not that I have to or what. It's just I want to. I know he's been going through a lot in his life and it's so upsetting that I can't do anything special for him or I can't do anything at all to comfort him. All I could do is just pray. Praying before I sleep and praying that he will be able to do it. I know it's been hard but he's trying very hard at the moment. I've seen him work and even if it's not Picasso or Da vincci best but everyone deserves a little credit for taking that mile to work. I always believe that in life, people who puts in even just a little effort is better than putting none at all or not even doing anything at all. I've seen him work and I know he's trying very hard. I'll always be praying for you baby.

It's not much but it's all I could do. I would sell everything and book a plane just to see you, comfort you and help you. I would if I had that money. I would join the competition and win it just for us. I know..it seems a little far fetched or that I am getting way over head, but..it's one of the ways to motivate myself, to make me feel like I could do something rather than doubting myself giving myself negative comments about being unable to do it.

Feels sad at times I feel worthless. And how money is so tight at the moment I could just cry. 

But for you, I'll always be strong. I'll always remember how you comfort me, tell me to smile, kiss me and hug me whenever I feel down. 

But no matter the reason, I'll always love you.

Praying that you'll be able to get through the semester and praying that you'll understand and realise how much I love you. 

And baby, don't ever give up. It's your chance to show your lecturer what you can do. He giving you an OTP is a good chance. He's giving you one more shot to work out your flaws and do better. He could have done the other way round but with this opportunity you surely can show what you have. Take time to understand and do it well. I am always sure you can do it. Even if by means, it's not Da Vinci level and all that shit but the effort counts. You're always improving and I can see that. I love you so much. 

Don't ever lose hope. Don't lose faith in yourself and I won't lose faith in you. I never will.

I love you booboo :D

LOVES! <3

Favourite part

My week has been crazy! It has been and so far I am loving my course. Photography class ended today and I really do feel a sense of nostalgia. My final project for it was amazing as well. I am glad I took the time to learn, understand and be patient with my picture. Peter has taught me so much not just about photography but about appreciating the art of it. And it turned out so good that Peter was happy with it and the technicians as well. I was happy with it and I will say it once again. I love my final project outcome. So well I did another shoot with my friend. It was rather spontaneous but quite fun. It was at Richmond Park and another Richmond Park album coming out soon!

Thank you Jo for being my model :) I really honestly must tell you that you are beautiful in every way :) 

Anyhoos, yeah I am currently doing my awareness poster research. I'm doing about HIV but though I must say I want to do another research on another program. But either way, this will do for now. There hasn't been anything special for the past weeks. Been doing my work and all. But well eventualllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy! I'll get by :)

See ya :D