It took me the courage to write this but I am sorry. I know you're stressed with the current situation you're having and I absolutely didn't mean it. I'm just giving you the space you need and it's not like I don't wanna talk to you. I do but I need some time for myself to reflect what I did. I don't know whether you're reading this but I really do miss you.

I'm just being a chicken by not saying this to you but I love you. It's so sad that everytime I said something mean or bad, it hurts you and it hurts me twice as much. I know you're going through a hard time and sometimes you might find me not understanding or like being a big bitch hogging up your ass but I just wanted to talk to you. At that time, I didn't know who else to turn to. I was trying to keep it in, trying to keep it cool when you told me you were busy and you had to sleep early but inside I was really sad.

Whatever I said, it really hurt I know. It's just not the right way to do it and I know it. I just hope I can see you again. But of course, I promise I'll tell you when and will not get mad or say something mean to you. Even if you don't read this, I hope you know I'll always love you no matter what. I just hate it whenever you get hurt. It hurts me triple the time of that.

ps: there was a change of plans this week so i'm quite free on thursday if you want to meet me that is.