The journey continues

1 year and 11 months :) 

Happy anniversary sweetheart!

You were my strength when I had none left;

You were my light when darkness blindfolded me;

I honestly thank you for being patient with me at times. I want you to know I love you from the bottom of my heart.

Always.

Serena :)

Birthday Shoutout! :)

I honestly love giving people surprises and happy things. I gave a surprise call to my friend, Amanda cause today is her birthday. I don't think you have ever read my blog..or HAVE YOU? :D

 We talked for a bit and after the call, I felt this sudden urge of relief; happiness. I just love making people happy without receiving anything in return. It's just the joy of giving love to my family and my friends. Happy birthday to you Miss Amanda a.k.a Pingu :) I can't believe I've known you for two years and two years is quite a long time.

My only regret to this date is perhaps, I should have spent more time in getting to know you. I admit, we have our differences and arguments over small things that in the end we brush it off but at times, I wish deep down, I knew you better as a friend. Looking back at the photos now, it's making me a bit nostalgic and there's this pang of sadness in me. You are such an amazing person, a wonderful person who cares deeply for her friends. When I was going through a tough time, you were the first person I called to tell you my problem and I thank you for that. For being there for me.

I apologise if I had ever given you a hard time or made you cry. It's just so hard these days when my work is taking a toll on me but at least, I want to spend some time, writing a blog post about my life, friends, family and my passion for photography/design. I love how we are still able to connect through photography, through Facebook, through even just chatting a few minutes on the phone. It makes it all just so worthwhile, so precious, so very precious. Sigh, why am I crying?! -__- emotional stress?!

Stress is about take over me but writing this is actually calming me down but making me cry so..I'm still stress about THIS? LOL. Queen of Logic.

Anyways.

So this is ABOUT YOU TODAY :) My only wish to you perhaps is to stay happy and smile :D I did say before in a birthday message before that there I'd be lying if I said I never once thought about you. Every little thing that I see at times, like penguins, carrots, or even when I'm buying a gift, it reminds me of you somehow. It's quite an interesting theory (OMG. WHAT? THEORY?) But in honesty, I miss having our alone time together. We should definitely do more of this when I get back of course.

We should have jamming sessions as well. I'll be the hype girl while you'll be the lead vocalist, guitarist (cause I can't play guitar) :D

But of course no birthday post is complete without PICTURES.

PENGUIN HUG!

:D

Remember this? :D

Hahah, I'm forever the big bully MUAHAHA.

Sigh, I still can't take flash -___- << forever like this.

A decent picture :D

I am sincerely happy that you had a great birthday this year and I do admit trying to photoshop my face sandwiched between you guys haha! But well, alas..I am there in spirit and love. Spreading all my love from all the way here! I'll always be here when you need me. One chat away! Love you long time, Kok xx

TOA

I left TOA around last year. It was one of the hardest decisions I had to do. It was in between finishing my degree or pursuing one in London. I was trying very hard to balance our and weigh the options between the two but sadly, London won me over. I made my decision to pursue a degree in London. Of course, the decision is something I didn't regret but deep down, at times I wish I was back at TOA with my college friends. My very first class was CD1005-1. I remembered I was well misplaced by accident but I got to know the people so well, it was hard to let go. I made wonderful friends, we had a wonderful bond and till today, I still feel this nostalgia crawling in me- telling me if I stayed, we could have graduated together. Looking back at these pictures, my lips curve up to this geeky smile; reminiscing all the good times we had. Our dress up days to our lunch together, those were the good days. All the good days. It was freedom really. And we enjoyed every bit of it.

Emo day.

Gaga Day.

Beach Day.

Yeah, I left CD1005-1 after due to the mistake of the college. But it was good mistake. If well I wasn't placed here, I wouldn't have met them at all. Funny how life plays out. How everything is sort of preplanned for you without even knowing.

Oh my dear Pingu :(

I miss these girls so badly. We still kept in touch, we still hang out, we still go overboard with crazy 10 tubs of ice cream. (well that was 2 years ago)

Before I left.

I returned for the winter break and left around January. Spend New Year's with them two loves :)

I returned around summer for the holidays. Summer was good. I had so much fun- ups and downs- but in all it was a good summer.

I'll miss you guys. Always.

"All I know is that, we were having fun at that time."xx

Wapping Wharf

Today was a mixture of everything. But when I look at this place, my heart feels at ease. My group mates and I went through a lot today. After that tough ordeal, we went to an exhibition to gain some inspiration and well an optimistic mindset. On the way back home, we took a quick stroll along this beautiful 'beach'. That is until we saw something super disturbing which I shan't talk about. It'll ruin the mood of the pictures haha. But it was just so peaceful and serene. I could just stay there all day and watch the day goes by. I do miss just walking along the beach and hear the sound of the crashing waves. Oh, what I would give to feel the water running through my feet, feel the breeze singing and just forget about the world. 

And at one point, nothing ever matters. Just the waves, just the ocean, just me. 

I'm at this stage where my mind's about to explode. I just need to calm down and face the problems with a serene mind. I'm getting my photography mojo back. It's been a while since I last took pictures but it's coming back. I'm developing a style of my own while experimenting with others. It's quite sapid so far but I do hope I will be able to rekindle my love for photography and deepen my passion for design. I sound so melancholic but in all, I am very exhausted today. 

Mentally exhausted. 

Shoe prints. I quite like this though.

Looks quite creepy doesn't it?

With a heavy and warm heart, I bid you goodbye. Forget about the injuries of the past and focus on the obstacles of the future. 

Goodnight world. xx