Assignment mood

The assignment workmode. I'm currently working on my Cultural Studies work before I proceed with my typography assignment. So far, I am loving the assignments! I actually can't wait to start working on Typogrpahy but of course I wanna do a lil bit research on Cultural Studies before I proceed with type, afterall I want an A for Cultural Studies as well as Typography and Indesign.

So I have started on a Mini project called The Black and White project. Well, for the record, I've decided to take more monochromatic shots for some experiment purposes. But well it doesn't mean, literally as well. It's just a compilation of the ugliest side of things especially small miniature objects which people don't see everyday. I have a feeling it's going to be a very successful project but obviously I'm still working on the name.

And for a teaser?

There won't be any yet because I'm actually still in the middle of taking the pictures. It's just a project where I express a lot of discontentment as well as absurdity to the world. At the same, it has a soft side towards certain things.

Don't get what I mean?

You'll see :)

And the rule about this Black and White project?

No, heavy editing at all. As in, no contrast, no colour, no nothing. It all depends on your camera. Tough job but  I will try.

Yes it is unedited.

Your weight is on my shoulder.

Doing research and well the progress is just bleh. And so I have snacks to keep me pumped!

OM NOMNOMNOM.

MINE :)

LALALALAL. MINE.

Hi, my day was fine. How was yours?

Forgiveness.

I can't forgive myself, whatever happened today was something I still can't forgive.

Yellow people! :)

Hello beautiful people! So I had a very productive day. My group's doing fine with the progress of the presentations and also we're doing pretty okay. Right now I shall dedicate my entire life to typography and indesign tonight. I had too much fun today so well there's the price to pay. What did I do today? I sat through the simple consultation with Stephen and I believe he is so much of help! I can't wait man to start writing my essay! He likes the idea and I am seriously anticipating on getting my 70% and also an A for the fucking essay. I want a bloody A.

Typography as well cause I'm really freaking out. I'm scared I won't be able to do well but I have to gotta try. All my other friends are doing well so far and I have to make progress. I'm gonna dedicate a few minutes writing this blog before proceeding to my work. Aside from that, after the study net session, I went on a shopping trip with my boyfriend since it's our 5 month anniversary so well we went shopping :)

OMG!

LOVE

UK BABY! HAHAH.

And well yeah. We went to watch Kung Fu Panda 2 and and I LOVE IT! IT'S FUNNY, TOUCHING AND I LOVE IT. You guys it's a must watch. I didn't think it was going to be good like the first one but this one blew me away :')

And no I'm not gonna spoil it for you people :) just go watch!

Off to work! See you!

My assignment list @_@

1) A refined draft+research+online journals of my cultural studies
2) Refine typography proposal (in the middle of that D:)
3) Research on Indesign stuffs.
4) Research on Visual references for Breast cancer
5) Research on tutorial studies and preparing presentation for cultural studies
6) Read through the stories again (still in the middle of that)

Super awesome assignments with limited amount of time.

5 months

Your love is the greatest gift I could ever receive.

Happy 5 months, b :)

hearts!

Assignment overload :(

And that's only quarter of it. I've been swarmed by so many projects+assignments I can't even hold on! So far, I'm trying my best to keep up with the assignments I have so far. Not an easy task :( I have so much to accomplish and I am in desperate need of the library. I need to visit the library more often. I shall treat it as my second home. Tomorrow, I need to go see my lecturer regarding my essay, need to sit through study net session, library for more information, refine my proposal, visual references for the breast cancer, discuss about the presentation next week, think about this, think about that, need to start sketching out indesign ideas and storybook, need to read books and the list goes on! 

I'm in the middle of doing my essay outline and it's looking sort of okay. I've gathered all the research I have and now I need to outline everything. After that, need to brainstorm for Indesign and Typography :(

I mean what is life?!

I am in sad need of help :(

But good news is, I am progressing quite well for the essay so far. As well as Typography, but not so much on Indesign :( NEED TO START. I need to start on my research for the breast cancer. So far I've done the visual references part so that's okay for now.

Still the outline is killing me. So many things to refine and consider :(.

I shall go and bury myself in the essays before I go nuts.

Chao.

So how?

I can't go back with the words I said.

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?

I'm okay don't worry. I'm just trying to pick up the pace. I just love the pictures from weheartit. Go check it out. It's an awesome and inspiring website. So today, I read a book, Fotografiks by David Carson. And he is a genius. I'm gonna write my essay about him cause he is a genius. I love his work and the whole concept of photography and graphics are astounding. It really changed my whole perception on photography. I am excited for this. I will do my best to make this happen.

Today was rather, frightening. But thank you guys for helping out. I know I've started a big mess and I can't go back and undo this mess. I just have to stay on and face my mistakes.

I'll get through this.

And soon.

We will :)

:(

I forgot to tell you I was going.

I didn't mean to cancel just to hang out with other people. I forgot to tell you and yeah it's my fault. I keep forgetting and I know it's not an excuse but I never want to cancel on you just to hang out with other people.

They don't mind you joining.

But probably you don't want that do you?

What I did was wrong, but I never had any intention to. If you're awake now or something and if you're reading this, I wanna tell you that I'm sorry. I'm extremely sorry and it won't happen again. I'll promise to make time for you and remember the plans instead of forgetting one by one.

I'm sorry.

it won't happen again.

so please don't be mad? I know it happened to you before but I swear I didn't mean it.

so sorry.

Priest

Today was rather productive. After getting my SPM certificate translated by the official translator (I know it's ridiculous but trust me the translator's house was far more ludicrous), I got home, changed and drove to One Utama to catch a movie with the boyfie :) We had the Shimono crepes again and this time, I chose strawberry! It was good :) Though I absolutely don't have a picture of it but you get the picture, it's nice ;)

We went to Starbucks later to sit down and well I took funny pictures (I'll upload them soon, need to edit them) And around 3.40, we watched The Priest :O!



It was, bad. Trailers can be really deceiving. I thought it would be different and the only addition to it was actually the 'secret' weapons which I felt, they weren't even that good. The vampires in the movie were like...blind. No eyes and honestly the concept was very weak. I know it's based on a korean manhwa but really, it did no justice to it.

One thing that made me very happy was Mr. Cam Gigandet who looked SUPER ADORABLE :)



Wheeee :)

Aside from that. Yeah, pretty much it. Not a memorable movie.

Had Nando's for dinner but well, being vegan, I had the potato salad and the fries. Right now, just chilling and I am so excitedddd! Classes starts tomorrow and I'm uber uber excited :)

Can't wait. BRAND NEW ME :) BRAND NEW CLASS!

Food is the most awesome thing ever

I believe tumblr is feeding my eyes with good food. Honestly saying, it's a good thing (and bad at the same time but whatever, that's not the point) I shall feast your eyes with bake goodies! I've been watching DC Cupcakes and Cake Boss on TLC and I MUST SAY, IT'S KILLING ME. THEY ALL LOOK YUMMY and SCRUMPTIOUS AND GOD DAMN IT, IT'S FATTENING teehee ;)

But the ones I'm showing you are not only screaming sugar but also a lot of green actually. I'm vegetarian, deal with it. But don't worry, there's lean meat for you meat lovers :D

Say you love, MACAROONS!

Heavenly

Healthy sial :)

Eggs :O

I find them so cute :)

My love for bananas never die :)

Hahahahahahahahahhaha. Anywayssss.

Recently, I've been assigned to do more work for portfolio. Photography, portraits, so on so forth good work for me! I'm happy! Oh and recently, I've been doing a lot reflective thinking and I have to a conclusion that lately, I've been doubting a lot of my abilities. I know I say I love photography, design and I really want to pursue it! I'm really passionate about it. Photography, design, typography, everything but during semester 3, my heart shattered into pieces. I realised, I became more like a machine and you know constantly worrying about assignments.

I was mad at myself.

Truly, madly, deeply.

Because everytime I think of assignments, my heart sinks.

But if you're really passionate about it, it doesn't count does it? I don't know, sometimes I wonder what's going on in my mind. What I really want.

I love what I'm doing but is it.

enough?

Well, I'll leave that to the mind.

How did it go?

It went well I must say. I think I made a good impression. Now just waiting for the real interviewer to come and man, I'm really scared! So I have a few assignments to do today and tomorrow. I have to take some pictures in grayscale, portraits and best of all? WRITE AN ESSAY like omgosh :/

Actually they do have a degree for Photography, but I don't know whether I should venture on it. Sure I really want photography but I want advertising as well well mainly that's the reason why I joined one Academy in the first place :/

This is crazy. I have the urge to go ahead and write my essay. Oh well. Maybe I should do that. Or take pictures. That would be nice.

I want to be a barrista! Well because I love the decorating part not the coffee brewing part. It's so pretty! I'm gonna feast your eyes with more pretty food tasting pictures from now on! Or maybe later cause I'm kind of tired of writing. Need to write my essay!

Hai People

When you're bored at 12 am. 

Hai people! Blogger was on hiatus the whole day so not my fault I did not blog anything today yeah! I'm so sleepy now I don't know what to blog. And my camera is in good hands! See that's my 450D. Working like a champ until now and take awkward weird pictures like this one, so proud of my baby boy :D Yess it's a boy, DEAL WITH IT.

Anyhoos. Whatever happened yesterday was a goner. Whatever it is, I hope it won't happen again. Alright love? I love you loads x.

It's only a matter of time, when you suddenly realise how much you really care.

Starbucks

I'm actually at starbucks now. Sadly to say. My house is being infested with ants so, they had the cleaners to spray some pesticide all over the place so I was forced to evacuate and reside at Starbucks until it subsides. I can't wait to start photography seriously but I'll only start next month. I have no classes on Monday yet again. That really sucks :( Li Wen won't be around.

But I can't wait for Imagery! Cheng Kuan will be teaching us and maybe I'll improve more on my illustrations. I've been taking pictures a lot more lately. I actually, feel much more connected with my camera. You know that feeling when someone asks you to sell your old camera to them or give them away. At first when you said yes you will give your camera away to them.

And when you start preparing, you come to a sudden realization that is very hard to ignore and bear. You just can't part with your camera. I sound foolish. I made a promise and all and I thought I really could do it. But I can't bring myself to give it away. And you start remembering. That when you first got your DSLR, your very own first DSLR. It was the latest on the market but then you knew there were more other cameras coming. Instead, I stuck to the model and held on to it. Canon 450D.

Back then was just playing around with it, you don't even know half the function and all. But you come to realise through that, you understand your camera better. And when you do, you start to love it even more. I was calling all my friends, asking them to take pictures and they got pretty much annoyed. But they helped me out with it.

2009, I stopped photography for a very long time. But I still took weird pictures of myself. Hahaha. I started experimenting with fire (I actually burn the paper) and did other weird stuff. But in the end, I enjoyed it thoroughly. In 2010, I continued again and for the first ever time, I did another big photoshoot with my school friends and funny thing is, they asked me to be in it. I was happy but well not much of the whole fact I was getting my picture taken but I did it anyway. It was the toughest project actually compared to the rest I did 2011. We didn't just took one photoshoot but we did two in one. Which took the whole freaking day. We had a masquerade one and a beach one.

It was helluva tiring but worth it :) I'll show you the pictures in my next post. Right now, I have a new camera and my new semester starts soon. I'm excited! I'm actually excited that I'm finally majoring. Excited excited :)

Anyways, Starbucks! Here are some pictures cause I was bored.

Banana Chocolate chip Muffin :) I made you drool didn't I?

Made you drool again!

Chocolate Cream chip

 Nerd :P

Chocolate chip goodness.

Counter :O

Macbook Pro baby ;) 15 inch :D

Was fooling around :)

The view :D 

Oh well, nothing much to blog but well I'll have another post later for my previous Photography work :)

And lastly.

Yeap, I had to :D

Induction Programme!

It was super productive and fruitful :) It was so great seeing everybody. I miss everybody oh so much! I'm in the same class together with Elaine, Jye Miin and Wei Lyn! Sadly not with Sam and the rest. The subjects these sem are amazingly tough but they're so good! I'm gonna enjoy it to bits and pieces. Anyhoos, so I went over to college, was in Block I and Li Wen gave us an introduction of how level 4 would be like.

The marking system and everything is scary! But I can't wait to make epic stuff. The session went on and we're supposed to have a study net session as well however our accounts were not ready so we didn't have it and sadly our class trip which was scheduled tomorrow as well has been postponed. Well, that was the downside! The upside of it? Early lunch :D

I had pineapple fried rice after such a long time with the boyfie :) I was joined later by Jules, Mel and Amanda. After lunch, we had a small activity where we combined with the MM people and discussed how are we going to reimagine and recreate our learning environment. I say within two hours, we made a sort of a funny environment and at the same time it was pretty good, not BAD!

I still want unicorns as my lecturers DAMN IT :(

Anyhoos, had dinner with Elaine at that Penang restaurant and drove home! It was jam as fuck :( I had to take the shortcut and the shortcut took me a long ass time to get home. Received the email from the dude and right now, compiling my portfolio. Damn it. It's seriously a lot. But I have enough to show him :)

Hope all is well though. I'm extremely tired and around 10, I'm gonna file all the works nicely and neatly for him to see. I have two days to do it so I need to do this in a nice and orderly manner. I'm gonna be printing my spotless works for the interviewer to see! I just hope she likes it :)

Anyways, back to my unwinding time before I go nuts with my work.

See you guys real soon! :D

Tired and tired

I feel like letting things out. Lately, I've been struck my loads of questions and doubts. It's getting on my nerves. I feel like I can just minimize myself until I'm microscopic. Well in a few hours I'll be off to college. So why am I still feeling very weary? I was excited for the past few hours and then it hit me all of a sudden. Reality hit me and it falls back to what the hell am I doing right now. Lifeless, bored. I need some excitement man!

I feel like I need air. But how am I suppose to breathe with no air?

 Balloons are pretty things. I don't know but everytime I see a balloon, I feel so relieved. I feel like I need to release some sort of stress inside me. Not to mention having weird dreams! This is scary.

Such a delicate picture. I realise that I just don't do any justice to any of my pictures. Haih, maybe that's why I don't take pictures of myself. I feel like I need a unwind session. Which means, more photography with my Damien :)

Awww :) Hahaha, I miss you baby :) And I'm looking at you right now hehehe. Shoot me then, I know I'm cheesy but you really have no idea how much I miss him :( Even if we're talking right now. It's like everytime my heart just have those weird contractions whenever I see you. Always making it beat faster than normal. Teehee :)

Hearts for you because I wub you :D

Cheesy I KNOWBUTIDON'TCAREONLYFORMETOREADTEEHEEANDYOUTOOBABY.

As I promise

I was feeling pretty nostalgic today so taking my 450D out for a nice walk and exercise, I took some interesting pictures. It was pretty nostalgic. Because I had my camera since I was 16, my very first DSLR camera and I'm 19 now :) That's 4 years of being in service. My camera's name: Damien. We had a new recent addition to the family and it's his sister, Jean. I mean though 600D is good doesn't mean I'm gonna leave Damien alone. Damien is like my right hand man. I know I sound weird talking about my camera but it's true.

It's not selling in the market anymore but to me, I still love it. And I'm still amazed at how he still can work so well. I took some extremely lovely shots. I thought they were really good. I need to brush up on my skills! I think I'm getting better but there's always room for improvement. I really want to start college now. I don't care man, I really want to.



I was just feeling really nostalgic. The edits were much softer. I like this composition.




This one seems mysterious. I'm just loving the sunlight. Strangely.




People ask me why I take random pictures of leaves instead of other things. And I tell them.


Why not?




I love this. I didn't use macro for this! Just standard lens :D




Something about this picture, captures me. It feels very surreal. I'm always a shell person and recently, I've been trying to break out of it. Maybe it's a sign?


As you can see, I am in love with bokeh. This reminds me of the a quiet and blissful night, and you can see thousand eyes looking at you from above. Thousand eyes, stars. I just love the feel of the picture.




I've been playing with sunlight a lot recently. I don't know but every night, when I sleep, I start crying. No really, I start crying over the weirdest things. And everytime I cry, I picture a sunlight coming through, and somehow, it made me feel better.




Just like this.




And like this.




Feels out of reach but I'm trying to do my best at the current moment. I may look strong and you know unreachable. But I really feel frail inside.




I know I'm never alone and I know I have great things coming. But I have this feeling that it'll just fade away and never come back. Sometimes I really doubt of my photography skills but I tell myself, I'm always better than before.

I don't know, sometimes I don't know whether I want to take photography.

And everytime I can't get the feel of my shots, I feel miserable.

It's like I lost a part of me.

That's how I feel. But looking at these pictures, I know I can do it. I'll just have to find a reason to live and a reason to start believing again.