Rawr

Painting was fun today! It was hilarious but I just love how Chris and Willie teach. It's so fucking different from how One Academy teaches. One Academy strives for perfection like every detail is important AND drawing from photographs where they train your skills in terms of proportion. While here, they teach you to develop your own style. They don't strive for perfection, they want you to make mistake. They want you to understand the power of observation. When life drawing, they expect you to seriously trust your brain and trust yourself. Through drawing, I learnt trust. Because all this while, I was too self conscious with everything, with drawing, with this and that. But in design, it's not like that. You have to be loose, you have to make mistakes. I did that many times and I understood why.

There was once he told us to just stare at the person you're drawing and you can't look at your paper. It's humanely impossible at first cause we just weren't trained for it. But sooner or later, we got the idea and the more we did it, the more we trusted ourselves. Some didn't but somehow I was getting there.

I say it was not a waste of time. Perfection can't be achieved. No matter how many figures you draw, in the end, they'll just look like any other figure drawing. Nothing special, nothing you like cause it's boring. But when you draw something with your own style, your own personality, it shines through.

And that's how people start noticing you.

Working hard is one thing. But learning to trust yourself, is another.

And I made many mistakes today but they were good ones. And self learning is everything. You can't be taught everything but you can teach yourself how to trust your senses.